... It has been a very LONG time.. I think it is partly because I have been really busy with radiology school... and partly because the wedding planning.... and partly because I really didn't want to run a dead dog into the ground!
I do not know how to explain what I am going through.. People say that I am "SO STRONG" (to be going through what I am going through).. but I am not.. I am Weak.... KYLE... Kyle makes me strong.!
I hate everyday knowing that I can not get pregnant.
I do not understand it.
(No we are not ready and we know that)
But that is NOT the point!
I do NOT get it?!
Why are there people who are out there that are more deserving, why am I not deserving? I pray to God all the time for answers, and for hope! But somedays (like today) I CRASH!
Why is it okay for 14 year olds who are babies themselves to be having babies?
Why is there a TV show "16 & Pregnant" Supporting these children having children?
Why can druggies have babies?
Why are there people in this world who get blessed with such a beautiful blessing, when they themselves do not have a beautiful life to bring this child home too?
I may be coming off very strong here, and very opinionated, but some days a girl has to have a break down or she would not be human!
I am sorry my friends that this is the blog I come back too after not blogging for such a long time, but this girl needed to vent!
VENT OVER!
