THE DRESS

Originally typed on February 10, 2012
THE DRESSES

BUT I AM NOT SAYING WHICH ONE IS

"THE ONE!"

DRESS ONE:

DRESS TWO:

 

DRESS THREE:

DRESS FOUR:

DRESS FIVE:

DRESS SIX:

DRESS SEVEN:

DRESS EIGHT:

ONE OF THOSE DRESSES IS "MY DRESS"

VENT OVER

... It has been  a very LONG time.. I think it is partly because I have been really busy with radiology school... and partly because the wedding planning.... and partly because I really didn't want to run a dead dog into the ground!
I do not know how to explain what I am going through.. People say that I am "SO STRONG" (to be going through what I am going through).. but I am not.. I am Weak.... KYLE... Kyle makes me strong.!

I hate everyday knowing that I can not get pregnant.
I do not understand it.
(No we are not ready and we know that)
But that is NOT the point!

I do NOT get it?!

Why are there people who are out there that are more deserving, why am I not deserving? I pray to God all the time for answers, and for hope! But somedays (like today) I CRASH!

Why is it okay for 14 year olds who are babies themselves to be having babies?
Why is there a TV show "16 & Pregnant" Supporting these children having children?
Why can druggies have babies?

Why are there people in this world who get blessed with such a beautiful blessing, when they themselves do not have a beautiful life to bring this child home too?

I may be coming off very strong here, and very opinionated, but some days a girl has to have a break down or she would not be human!

I am sorry my friends that this is the blog I come back too after not blogging for such a long time, but this girl needed to vent!

VENT OVER!

Six/One Years Ago Today, I Said "YES!!"

Before hand, I would like to apologize for the "Mushy Gushy" blog.!

... When I first "met" Kyle in High School I was a freshman and he was a sophmore, we shared the same lunch --- where we only sat one table apart.  I had no idea who he was, but I knew a couple of his friends who used to ask me everyday: "When are you going to hook up with my boy Kyle?" .... HA!!  I was NOT interested! I would always tell them, "NEVER!!!" 

The following summer my friend and I were hanging out at my neighborhood pool and Kyle was there with a couple of his friends, but he was not talk to me at all, much less even look in my direction.!!

-- That night I got a phone call from a number that I did not recognize, and sure enough it was Kyle.!  We talked on the phone for FIVE hours... CRAZY RIGHT?

We continued having phone conversations the rest of summer; school started a month later.  Kyle was my ride to and from school... but we were ONLY "Friends!"  About five months went by and I was really starting to like this kid, but he still had not asked me to be his girlfriend.  When October came around some of myne and his friends thought it would be kind of funny to decorate his truck while he was at work with balloons and posters that said "ask her out!"

That same night we were on the phone really late being really "lame" asking random questions, like: "What is your favorite Color? Movie? Show? IceCream?" ... etc... and he said okay one more question: "Will you be my girlfriend?"  It was so kuute in his little way and I was so caught off guard by it that I did not respond at first and he told me: "never-mind, never-mind... I take that as a NO.!"  hahaha, I had to convince him that my answer was YES, that I just was not expecting that question. 

... The funniest part was that he also asked me not to tell anyone, and he asked if he could ask me again in the morning so no one would make fun of him for asking me over the phone.! 

The first time I said YES to Kyle, was October 27, 2006.!! 

We were definitely a High School Couple, but I don't know if I would say we were "High School Sweethearts!"  We were young and had a lot of growing and changing to do, and sometimes it tore us a part.  But we learned to grow together!  That was the most amazing part about our relationship, we changed and grew into better versions of ourselves, and we did this together!

I am so Thankful for Kyle, he really has been here with me through so much, from family deaths, cheering me on at softball games, and the BIGGEST of all... the day the doctor told me I can not have a Baby!  

... Babies were the furthest thing from our minds, but it is still something we both always imagined!  We used to joke that "if" we ever had a baby girl, she would probably have Kyle's big ears and sideburns, but have my eyes and my body! haha!  It was hard to hear that everything we imagined may no longer be possible!  Kyle helped make me stronger, which is amazing!  I have always heard terrible things about guys leaving girls because they can not carry his baby, or keep his family name alive and going.  So to know that Kyle was still by my side through all of this.. is the Best thing I could ever ask for.!! 

... especially with my mood swings hahaha, being menopausal is no fun and the hormone pills do NOT help! hahaha --- Thank you Kyle.!! 

On October 27, 2011, Our Five Year Anniversary, Kyle got us a room at the San Louis resort in Galveston on the Sea Wall.  When we came back to the room from dinner, it was completely decorated with candles and rose pedals, and on the bed in rose pedals it said, "Will You Marry Me?"  I knew that if this boy was proposing to me even after everything we have been through that we can make it through anything!

This was the Second Time I told Kyle YES.!

Today is our SIX year anniversary and I am still very much in love with this man.  We are planning our wedding... and in Nine short months I can officially call Kyle my husband, and I will be Samantha Gannon!!

We plan to enjoy a year of marriage before looking into egg donation fertility treatments, so until then I know I have a fiance' and soon to be Husband who supports me and is here for me anytime I am feeling weak, to make me feel Strong Again.!!!

HAPPY 6 YEAR ANNIVERSARY KYLE LEE GANNON.! 

US:

Life Can Pass You By in the Blink of an Eye

These days I feel like everything is coming so fast, faster than I could have ever imagined.

In one month, Kyle and I will be celebrating our 6 year anniversary together, and also our LAST anniversary together as just a "couple." In 10 months, we will be saying our "I DO'S" and the next day sailing away on our very first Cruise.! : )

Not only that, but My future sister in law, Amanda Gannon had her second baby boy, Mason Lee Gannon.  I feel like she was barely 3 months pregnant just yesterday, and she already has an "ALMOST" one month old.!

 He is so precious.! And such a big boy, weighing in at 9lbs 9oz. at birth.! And his Big Brother Clayton loves him so much already.!

Just look at how Kuute.! : ) 

Then of coarse there is my Best Friend Lacey, and her pregnancy, that is just flying by : ) She is 37 weeks pregnant, baby Bowen Michael should be here in just a few short weeks. And when people say pregnancy can make some girls glow.. it is definitely so true with her, she is stunning pregnant.! 

A Picture from 32 weeks. Such a beautiful picture.!

It's crazy and amazing how fast and perfect everything is coming together, from marriage to families.! I could not be more happy for all of my family and friends for everything they are doing in their lives.! It truly is surreal.! 

WEDDING PLANNING:  

                                               Venue    ---------------------------   Check

                                              Photographer   ---------------------   Check

                                               Dress    ---------------------------    Check

                                               Shoes   ----------------------------   Check

                                              Bridesmaids   ----------------------    Check

                                              Groomsman    ---------------------  (AS SOON AS KYLE ASKS THEM)                                                 Florist     --------------------------   Check

                                              Decorations   ----------------------    A Lot.. still need some...

                                             ... etc .... 

Everything is coming along so well,  clearly there is still quite a few more things we need to do and plan, but there is still 10 months, so i am completely Stress Free, and excited to see what is to come.

Kyle and I talked the other day and came to an agreement that we want a wedding coordinator, even though in the beginning we decided we did not want one. But now we think it will help take away any possible stress, especially off of my mom, because we feel on the day of the wedding with out a wedding coordinator my mom will be missing out on a lot, and we want her to enjoy the wedding along with us and everyone else.! 

So tomorrow, we will be meeting with a wedding Coordinator to see if this is in-fact something that we would like to go through with, but I am pretty sure that we do, besides we could use a little help figuring out  the rest of our wedding vendors. I am excited to talk with her, I think it will make the wedding feel more real, seeing it all laid out and talked about. (it will help me visualize my actual wedding). : )

AND TO THE BIGGEST STEP OF MY LIFE.. 

This morning Kyle and I went to the Bank and got a JOINED ACCOUNT, which is the biggest step I have made, I have never shared my money, and I mean NEVER, so this is going to be interesting.  I think we will manage just fine as long as we communicate with each-other.

 

325 More Days

Now Now Now, I am not exactly the "Count Down" kind of a person, but when I realized that there is ONLY 325 More days, until I marry the man that I am going to spend the Rest of My Life with, it is a BIG eye opener.

I have almost spent 6 Amazing years with Kyle... now do not misunderstand my "Amazing" as "Perfect," because we are FAR from perfect, but that is what makes our relationship so Amazing to me.  We have gone through so much, and most definitely grown with each-other, and even taught each-other a thing or two...
Soooo...

Let the Wedding Festivities Begin.!

In January 2012, I attended the Bridal Extravaganza, and I had so much fun, but because it was so early and we were still looking for everythingggg, it was very overwhelming.  My mom and I decided to go again this June, but we had a mission, since we had already set our venue our mission was to find a wedding photographer. 

Well in January, one specific photographer made an impression that was hard to forget ... after being at the bridal extravaganza for 6 hours, and stopping by every booth in the entire place, at this specific booth, this gentleman was the ONLY person in the Entire place who asked me "How did you and your fiance meet?" The ONLY PERSON.  (mind you, there are 1,000's of booths there) 

Round Two in June, we walked around mostly to photographer booths. (I mean we did a cake test or two, and even some samples lol but mostly just photographers) and there were quite a few that were interesting, and there were also quite a few that were easy to eliminate.  Once again, we had been there for quite a few hours, and we get to the same booth from January, and once again he is the ONLY person to ask me "How did you and your fiance meet." We stood there for a longggg time just talking about me and Kyle, he was truly interested in getting to know us, and I think that is awesome.!

We did not make any solid decisions because we had heard of so many photographer nightmares we really wanted to research and make sure we were making a good decision.  I have talked to so many people who said they were trying to cut budget, or they had a family friend, or something like that, so they did not get an actual wedding photographer. And all of them say they regret it and if they could go back they would have hired somebody.  We went home we sat on it, we looked a few people up and in-case you do not remember from my "wedding venue" I am not a big shop around kind of a girl, so I text the photographer and we set up a consultation appointment.

He lives in Katy, so we met him half way at a Starbucks in Houston, he brought a suitcase full of wedding books, and answered all our questions, and was completely personable.  Considering I am kind of a shy person, that means so much to me that I was able to talk to him myself.  I told my mom that I didn't want to look around anymore that there really was no point since he was already the photographer that has made the best impression, so that's who I wanted.!! 

His name is Adam Copeland, and I have heard good and bad reviews, but you know what that is about anyone, and that is life. There are people out there who love me and there are people out there who hate me, so I made my decision and I am praying for the best for my special day.!! But I already know he is going to do AMAZING, I can just tell already.!! 

I am excited and eager to see what is to come in these next 325 days.!!

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WEDDING GARAGE SALE:

Yess, you read that correctly, "Wedding Garage Sale."  At the wedding venue that I will be getting married at next year, they held a wedding garage sale, which is basically exactly as it sounds.  Old brides come and set up tables full of stuff they used or even didn't use at their wedding. Center pieces, decorations, dresses, table linens, cake toppers, and so so so much more.  We went and got some ideas, but we didn't buy a whole lot, there was this girl who was always one step a head of me, it was actually kind of frustrating.  Every time I saw something I wanted she was already grabbing it and buying it.  But we still had a fun time, and like I said we got some ideas. Plus I got to visit my wedding venue and I really enjoyed that.

MY WEDDING SAVER: AKA LAUREN. : ) 

Just a couple of days after the Wedding Garage Sale,  I get a text message from my Best Friend, Lacey, she knew a girl who had just got married and was selling all of her wedding stuff, and she thought that I would be interested in it, so she gave the girl my number. In less than 5 minutes my phone was ringing, and on the other end the girl said, "Uhm Hi, I don't even know your name, but Lacey told me that you might be interested in buying some of my wedding stuff." It was so funny, because I had just sent her a friend request on facebook to see if I could find her post about the wedding stuff. I told her that I felt like a creep sending her a request when I didn't even know who she was. 

She started sending me some pictures, and I was showing my mom them all, and I was thrilled, it was exactly my style it was everything I already pretty much had in my head how I wanted it.  My mom loved it also, so I told her that I wanted EVERYTHING.! She was so shocked, it was amazing. She even took her post off facebook, because I was so interested in everything.  We met up two days later, and loaded down my truck with all her wedding stuff, because I really bought it all.! It worked out for the both of us, she cleared out a room, and I have a bunch of wedding ideas now. I would post pictures, but I really don't want to ruin the surprise.  But I want Lauren to know that I am sooooo Thankful, and of coarse to Lacey for setting the whole thing up. It was amazing.!! Lauren even told me that if there is a project that I need help with for the wedding, that she is more than welcome to help, considering most of the stuff she did her self.! So it is SO PERFECT.!! 

BRIDESMAIDS:

I have officially asked all my bridesmaids to be in my wedding, and they all said yes, which is so exciting for me, because I have the bestest friends EVER.! 

I bought them all Ring pops, and "Proposed" to them by saying:

"Kyle popped the Question, 

and now it is my turn:

Will you be my Bridesmaid!"

and then they could wear their rings when they said yes (or eat them haha) 

Lacey Nowetner

Amy Chandler

Kristen Marrero 

Ashley Stover-Venissat

Jessica Hughes 

Katie Kroll

 (No particular Order)

I can't post Kyle's GROOMSMEN yet, even though we know who they are, but he has not asked them yet, so I guess that will have to be added on Later. : ) 

Until then, I really would like to say that these 325 days could not come fast enough, I am so excited to finally become a Gannon, that words practically fail me, I never knew that I could love and care for someone as much as I do.  I swear I would be lost without him.! 

I Have My Days!

I think this Blog has been a long time coming... 

People who know me really well will be surprised by my next statement, and that is that :  

"I really try and think about what I am going to say before I say it."

       NOW: I do not mean on a daily basis, because lets be honest, I am "honestly" a very blunt person, and generally just Blurt out whatever I am thinking.  I admit I am guilty of probably offending some people, and possibly hurting some peoples feelings, but at the same time I also admit that sometimes the truth hurts.

Well, Today is going to be a day where, I will "TRY" to think before I type, but at the same time this is My Blog and this is how I feel, so if you are easily offended, please stop reading now, because I said I was only going to "TRY" to think before I type.!!

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BITTER BITTER BITTER:

          Oh Hello Bitter Betty, (that's me on some days, even when I try to leave her at home locked up, she still wants to come out and play her Bitter Games!)  As I have mentioned before I have Premature Ovarian Failure, and as I also have mentioned before Kyle and I are not planning or trying in any way shape or form to conceive any time soon anyway.  We want to enjoy our marriage, and then seek out our options! 

People tell me all the time how strong I am, and I am so thankful that they see that, because days like today, I do not feel so strong! As an Athlete my entire life I was brought up to "Suck it Up"  "Rub some dirt on it"  "Get over it"  "Don't be a Crybaby" ...etc... So I think that it is easier for me to hide my feelings, even from some of the people I love most.  

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You know, maybe the people closest to me shouldn't be so surprised, because I am just going to STOP right there, because I am a strong person, and I know that God has a plan for me, and a plan for Kyle and I as a married couple, weather we have our own baby or not, there is a reason and I trust in God to make the best decision for us.  So all Bitterness aside and locking Bitter Betty back up, let me just say that on the days when she comes out I just pray to God, and have faith and trust in him.!!

On another note, my manager told me the other day that she had a dream that I was pregnant, so maybe it is a good sign.! 

Also my friend Jessica told me that "Koi fish" are supposed to be good luck and bring upon good fertility, and that if you dream about one, it is supposed to be a good sign.. So maybe when the time is right I will have a dream about fishin' for a Koi fish.!

 

The Planning Begins

THE HUNT:

If you could even call it a "Hunt," I never really have been the type to shop around, I mean really I found my prom dress at the first store I went to, I found my wedding dress at the first store I went to, and I found the love of my life at the Only High School I went to.! :) 

So when it came to Venue hunting.. I thought I would actually look around, but I guess I might as well stick to tradition hahahaha, but I honestly can say that I did TRY.!

I went through every single pamphlet that I had received when I had went to the Bridal Extravaganza and I looked at Most of the wedding venue websites, but there was just one that stood out soo much more to me than any of the others. I called around and made appointments at about four venues, BUT I only made it to one appointment. My mom and I went, and we showed up a whole Hour early. But the lady did not mind at all, she was ecstatic to help us and answer any questions, which we really did not have to ask very many she had already answered most.! 

The venue is called Amber Springs, it is in Montgomery and it is Perfect for Kyle and I.

 

This is the only picture I have, but that's fyne because no need to give too much away :)

This will be the reception hall.! :) 

Anyway: when it came down to talking about "THE DATE" me and Kyle... (and when I say me and Kyle I really do mean Me hahaha) wanted to keep the date the "27th" since our anniversary is 10-27 and there were two Saturdays within the next year that fell on the 27th and that was April or July, and since I will still be in School in April, I figured July would be better. And when Liz (the wedding coordinator at the venue) opened her book, Low and Behold the only date open in July was "MY DATE.!" lOl It was fate, and I wanted to Hunt No more.!! Of coarse we had to go home and talk to Kyle, daddy, and my future inlaws, but everyone seemed real supportive so we called Liz and made it OFFICIAL..

I will Officially become Mrs. Samantha Gannon on July 27th 2013.!  :) 

  My mom supporting my shirt that I had made

"Team Bride" 07-27

"Gannon 13" 

NOW IF THAT IS NOT EXCITING ENOUGH... THERE'S MORE:

Kyle nor I have ever been on a cruise so we were talking about what we could do for our honeymoon, and I had mentioned it, honestly not thinking Kyle would go for it, because to be honest I thought he would be afraid of a cruise ship hahaha, but he seemed really excited. So I started looking on the internet and found out that a cruise is leaving from Galveston the day after our wedding. How PERFECT, it is a real honeymoon. 

So I contacted our Travel agent, Mrs. Renee Dunkin at Around about Travel, and she could not have been more excited about helping us out immediately, SERIOUSLY, i messaged her at 1:00 a.m. and she messaged me RIGHT BACK.! hahaha.

We set up a meeting with her, and she could not have been more helpful, it was so easy, so on July 28th we will be docking out of Galveston for our honeymoon on the Carnival Magic, we will be going to the Cayman Islands, Jamaica, and Cozumel. 

This will be our Beautiful Cruise Ship.! :)

Other than that, we still have a lot of time left to plan everything else, but it is already going by so fast, Kyle and I have already been engaged for almost eight months, and I feel like we just got engaged a month ago.

 I do plan on taking a lot of engagement pictures because Kyle hates pictures so it is a good way to get him to take some, so that I will have them for the rest of our lives hahahaha. A good friend of ours Kristen, has already taken some with us, she is in the process of editing them now, so I hope to see them soon. And then of coarse I will share them.! So I will still keep everyone posted on wedding planning and much more.!